The Daily Pink!: August 17th, 2010

Is it seriously only tuesday? Damn.

I wish I could dance well. Or rather, be in shape to dance. Watching Big Bang, and more specifically Taeyang's music videos... makes me want to move like that! Too bad i'm 1) too shame to do that in front of people and 2) no one wants the jiggly. All bad. Maybe someday.

*Sigh* Today is cleaning house day when I get home. I've been avoiding it for the last week and a half... clothes strewn about, small rubbish not taken out, makeup all over the place, floor unswept, tub unscrubbed, dishes dirty, and laundry not hung, and not washed. Soujioshimasu!

I have been having a most unholy urge to play DDR. But I want to get back into it physically, not just with the remote. I think I would love it as a workout. How nostalgic! Is that dorky of me? An almost 22 year old playing DDR? Would it look weird if I went to the arcade to play? Yeah, that'd be weird. I wonder if they still do the coin thing, and I wonder if newbs still steal coins. Oh shit, they don't even use coins anymore. Hah XD

PinkStar26

The Daily Pink!: August 13th, 2010

First and foremost,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELLI!

I love birthdays! I love getting my close friends gifts because it's an opportunity to be thoughtful and nice without it being weird. LOL.

I am feeling very, very strange today. I don't really believe in superstition, and today is Friday the 13th. But I suddenly got this strange, sad feeling. Kind of like self-pity, but I wasn't thinking of anything in particular.

I'm not really feeling great today; I couldn't sleep last night, I was tossing and turning because of the heat I think. Also my elbow was hurting (I contribute that to my budding carpal tunnel), and I woke up really late this morning. Look like crap, feel like crap. Oh well. I just gotta make the best of what I have today.

I am not sure why I am feeling the way I am feeling today. It almost feels like the pre-cursor to an anxiety attack, but my brain has not spiraled to that point. It feels very uncomfortable. I can usually throw on some awesome Big Bang music and drown out my worries, but it's not quite working today. I think I just need some time to myself to unwrap these feelings and figure out what's bothering me.

To be honest, I think i've been kind of depressed on some unknown level. I've found that I have cycles of being proactive, and being listless and sloth-like. I'm in one of those stagnant periods, where i'm not being active, not being helpful, being lazy and generally scattered. I really wonder how school is going to affect this cycle. I have a feeling I'm gonna need to get myself together this next week before school starts. I think i'm going to take this weekend to unwind, and next weekend to gear up.

Breathe in, breathe out. Big Bang. Type, type, type. Chai. Type, type, type. Water. Breathe in, breathe out. Get a grip. Smile at the computer screen. GRIIIN. Inhale, exhale.

I'm looking forward to some hopeful relaxing pauhana tonight.

Have a great weekend!

PinkStar26